And still wondered why the silence followed us home.
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
Thursday, November 1, 2012
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Thursday, September 13, 2012
Slack Lee
Slack surprised us a month ago. He had a huge blow up with Big Mangus. Big Mangus is a generous man, even for a pit boss. He's full Apache. Claims to be Geronimo's great great grand son. I told him my family knew his and we became friends shortly after I showed him the diary my great great grandma kept. My family hid Geronimo's children while the rest of the Apache ducked into the Chiricahuas as calvary chased after them.
There was word going around that Slack was in the mountains across from Bear Lake but I thought I saw him yesterday on the ridge-line next to the stand of dead trees. I was out near the twelfth hole running ice for Sky's snack cart. Slack has this dodgy gate with a quick step. His shirt was off and his black slacks were grey with campfire ash. He'd taken a few choppy steps across the high boulder we all used to smoke at when when were kids. I knew he was looking at us 'cause I saw the hair on Sky's neck stand up.
There was word going around that Slack was in the mountains across from Bear Lake but I thought I saw him yesterday on the ridge-line next to the stand of dead trees. I was out near the twelfth hole running ice for Sky's snack cart. Slack has this dodgy gate with a quick step. His shirt was off and his black slacks were grey with campfire ash. He'd taken a few choppy steps across the high boulder we all used to smoke at when when were kids. I knew he was looking at us 'cause I saw the hair on Sky's neck stand up.
Friday, August 24, 2012
Sunday, August 12, 2012
Friday, August 3, 2012
LA
I stared out at it with regret for allowing my self to stay this long.
I am tired of glass and stucco and cars.
My heart has lost it's speech.
Comfort has led to self-imprisonment.
To be on the move under new sky comforts the stranger
inside of me.I am tired of glass and stucco and cars.
My heart has lost it's speech.
Comfort has led to self-imprisonment.
The adrenaline of the outdoors. A fall from bad footing and misjudged direction has become strange to me.
My mind wanders to the canyons I explored with my father and brothers when I was a child. It's hidden there high in the Gila near two waterfalls and a deep canyon with cottonwoods. The smell of wild mint blows along the bank in the evenings when the wind is done high in the mountains and starts it's decent back to where it came from. There are trout in the creek that are easy to catch. There is an Apache cave to protect us from the lighting during monsoon season.
I considered the stand of
cottonwood trees that grow next to a hidden waterfall inside the Gila Wilderness. It is a place with strong memories and clean water that is good for drinking. There
are bass and cut-throat trout in the creek that are simple enough to catch.
Wild mint grows on the riverbank and the smell drifts down the canyon in the evening winds after they are done working in the mountains. I start gathering fire wood as the low areas along the creek start to get cold.
There is a waterfall on the right. It's up from the place called Cow Cave where black suit from Indian fires still clings. Below all of this is an even bigger cave with ruins from cliff dwellers. In July we would watch the storms rumble through the canyon from the warmth of the dwelling caves.
In my dreams I still see the walls lit up by the lightning and when I wake I remember the sounds of the summer storms as they rush free through the canyons.
There is a waterfall on the right. It's up from the place called Cow Cave where black suit from Indian fires still clings. Below all of this is an even bigger cave with ruins from cliff dwellers. In July we would watch the storms rumble through the canyon from the warmth of the dwelling caves.
In my dreams I still see the walls lit up by the lightning and when I wake I remember the sounds of the summer storms as they rush free through the canyons.
Friday, July 27, 2012
Saturday, July 21, 2012
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Slack Lee
My breath blew past my face as I moved silent on the night. Drifting downhill through canyons of brick towards a distant neon glow.
I can avoid the urge to drink most times but it’s strong tonight. I’ve kept my self in the dark for too long. I feel my inside on the out of me.
I can avoid the urge to drink most times but it’s strong tonight. I’ve kept my self in the dark for too long. I feel my inside on the out of me.
I entered the place and a sign read, Hang your souls here.
"Can I hop on."
A pancake showed up with syrup.
"I don't need Syrup, I said."
I was four when I woke up alone on my mother’s bed. My tiny
body edged off the quilt her mother had made me. The wood floor felt cold at my feet as I searched the places where I was certain to find her: next to the kitchen sink
where she peeled potatoes for the soup we would eat all winter, on the porch trunk where she sat tucked into a ball rocking her self when no one was looking, and the clothesline out back next to the orchard.
Panic
set in when I realized the promise mom had made me was a lie. I was alone.
At the back of the bar was a woman. Her chopped bangs and pale face drew me in just as the neon had done. I pushed my way towards her.
"Can I hop on?" She Asked.
"I don’t know if you’re tall enough to ride."
"Don’t worry your blue little eyes 'cause I got these heels."
"I don’t know if you’re tall enough to ride."
"Don’t worry your blue little eyes 'cause I got these heels."
My eyes dreamt of following her long legs down into her black stilettos. She would have perfect feet.
By the time I found my self I was north on Clark Street at a
late night place called, The Pick Me Up Cafè, a place where people hunker down when their hangover hits.
Two waitresses moved food around. The tired and gone stared at things. One man rested his head next his waffle and his buddy worked a fork around it.
The waitress approached me. Her wrinkled face wanted my order but as her mouth stood there all
I could hear was a younger woman’s voice.
"Can I hop on."
A pancake showed up with syrup.
"I don't need Syrup, I said."
Saturday, June 16, 2012
LA
Like trying to contain a pile of socks from the dryer, I knelt to collect you but you spilt all over the place.
Friday, June 15, 2012
I felt crawling inside.
I chased you into the shadows but you weren't there.
Take the pain and stick with her.
Take the pain and stick with her.
Saturday, May 5, 2012
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Thursday, April 19, 2012
Forrest People
Sawdust clung to the laces on her shoes when I came upon her standing in a field of stumps. I adjusted my pack. She stared absently into the horizon. I pulled on a long piece of grass waiting for it to break. She started to speak.
Joseph.
Henry.
Fredrick.
She paused when her eyes fell on a stump only a few inches wide. I felt her tears build when she whispered a name so softly I couldn't hear.
How had she gotten here? Not a single person was seen since crossing the great divide. Then I heard her voice spill into me through the tree line asking me who did this. I pulled harder at the grass until it broke.
Joseph.
Henry.
Fredrick.
She paused when her eyes fell on a stump only a few inches wide. I felt her tears build when she whispered a name so softly I couldn't hear.
How had she gotten here? Not a single person was seen since crossing the great divide. Then I heard her voice spill into me through the tree line asking me who did this. I pulled harder at the grass until it broke.
Monday, April 16, 2012
Jug Face
The good people have found themselves amongst each other yet again. And you that are not here...our hearts feel yours.
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Cold enough to freeze not only yours but mine
You came to see honesty and found it was not there. You left with a heart too fragile.
The white carnation she wore at the funeral was not really for her father. It was for herself.
Your lack of kindness makes you a shadow in conversation.
If they'd all just leave I'd really find myself.
My echo came back wearing a new dress.
The hummingbird asked the firefly, "Why can't we cry?"
The white carnation she wore at the funeral was not really for her father. It was for herself.
Your lack of kindness makes you a shadow in conversation.
If they'd all just leave I'd really find myself.
My echo came back wearing a new dress.
The hummingbird asked the firefly, "Why can't we cry?"
Sunday, March 25, 2012
You step back to find out we are all insane
Fools say we all anticipate something else while the very thing happens in front of us but the real fool is he who actually believes you can stop and smell the roses. The darkness of reality is only lit by imagination.
You made the story dance.
You made the story dance.
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Butterfield and the Black Range
Gold Gulch and a juniper fire.
The way the mountains and trees were was beyond us.
To realize we were not dreaming.
Like crashing a wave, she said.
The way the mountains and trees were was beyond us.
To realize we were not dreaming.
Like crashing a wave, she said.
Friday, January 27, 2012
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