You better cover it up before they get here.
Three dogs showed me just how it can finally happen.
Today I believed the influence of my surrounding.
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
You've lost perspective
I felt like a parent interrupting a room of children. How their eyes anticipated me leaving. "Close the door so we can get back to having fun."
When I think I found just the right angle I haven't. When I feel like I'm included in my life, the author tells me to get lost. "See this page you wrote...I'm ripping it up."
Friday, October 28, 2011
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Thursday, October 13, 2011
See you on the other side
We are doing a lot of leaving today.
My feet did little but my body made it home.
When the clouds leave the sky alone.
My feet did little but my body made it home.
When the clouds leave the sky alone.
Monday, October 10, 2011
Thursday, October 6, 2011
We have all gone missing
The last time I felt it I was in Chicago. I had made it through the tourist traps to the end of the pier, snapped a photo of the skyline and was on my way back to land when my phone vibrated. After reading the caller ID I wanted to ignore it. Put it back in your pocket and it will go away.
"Hello."
I had to sit down knowing my body was about to shut down. There was a black bench. It's expanded metal felt odd against my back as everything went blurry. Blink. You better blink or your eyes will dry out. lf only the people walking past me knew they were blurry peripherals.
Help! My mind said out loud to them but only I herd it. They can't help. They are strangers.
Find me while my soul is screaming. Take me in your arms and tell me your here. Open my head and take out my branches. Touch my leaves. Feel thier vibration. How you will understand me and I will understand you.
Help! My mind said out loud to them but only I herd it. They can't help. They are strangers.
Find me while my soul is screaming. Take me in your arms and tell me your here. Open my head and take out my branches. Touch my leaves. Feel thier vibration. How you will understand me and I will understand you.
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
From a distance
We sped through desert coverd night where persuit was hapiness.
My truck in the yard, on this hill, in this place we hoped to never find.
Their fantasies' lit our muse like light turned on deep shadow. In the end, everyone failed.
I kept my self company last night.
My thread broke today.
Are we part of nostalgia.
cac·o·e·thes
noun
1. An irresistible urge to do something inadvisable.
We must talk, think, and live up to the spirit of the times,
and write up to it too, if that cacoethes be upon us, or else we are
nought. |
-- Anthony Trollope, Barchester Towers
Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Brendan Keenan
I squatted next to an older man sitting on a cobble stone sidewalk collecting change in a stalking cap.
Do you know of a place where I can get a really authentic Irish meal?
He said nothing, just stared into my eyes. In that moment I realized why the eyes are the window to the soul. They are the only part of our exterior that reflects how young we feel inside. His bright blues eyes reminded me of mine. They could have been the eyes of a young child; free of the wrinkles that gathered on his face and free of the gray that scattered through his hair. In less than a second I felt like we were sharing a common moment. I was looking into the mirror of my future and he was looking into the mirror of his past. Where is the time going?
I became a bit uncomfortable with the silence and he noticed it.
I became a bit uncomfortable with the silence and he noticed it.
"Are you nervous?"
"No."
"You look a bit nervous."
I swallowed hard as I realized what I had just done. I had asked a man who eats off the streets if he could point me in the direction of a really good restaurant. He must be taking this as an insult, I thought. I really hoped he saw my innocence. The tension was strong and I was relieved he finally broke it.
"Where ya in from?"
"The US."
"I know you're a Yank but that's not what I asked."
I scanned his eyes that were still locked on mine.
I scanned his eyes that were still locked on mine.
"Most recently Paris."
"How did you like Paris?"
I felt like he already knew my answer.
I felt like he already knew my answer.
"The people were cold."
He looked across the people pushing through Temple Bar, then picked up his wood flute and played a familiar song that I finally recognized as, Battle Hymn of the Republic. He licked his lips, lowered his flute and looked back into my eyes.
"I've been there."
"What did you think of it?"
"I've been there."
"What did you think of it?"
"I like the way the leaves feel when I kick through the fall."
I smiled, letting his words settle in.
Above us was a gigantic spinning ice cream cone; it's electric motor rattling it's plastic exo-skellton at tourists in the square. For a moment I felt like I was in America. I broke from it's trance and looked back at his blue eyes.
Above us was a gigantic spinning ice cream cone; it's electric motor rattling it's plastic exo-skellton at tourists in the square. For a moment I felt like I was in America. I broke from it's trance and looked back at his blue eyes.
"You're quite the master on that flute."
"Thank you."
He played something more Irish. As he played I closed my eyes and tried to imagine Temple Bar before electricity.
"Where did you learn to play?"
He laughed to himself as if to recall a hundred moments at once.
"My daddy taught me to play flute and me brother to play pipes."
"Bag pipes?"
"Yeah, he taught me and Paddy ten songs and took us on the road with him."
"Was that when you went to Paris?"
"No, after Daddy died Paddy and I kept on."
"You toured?"
"We took off fast, started playing to huge crowds: London, Paris, Dublin, Belfast, Chicago, San Francisco..."
Suddenly my mirror to the future felt very heavy. How had he gone from there to here -- asleep on the street.
He reached his hand out to me.
"Brendan Keenan."
I shook it.
"Ben La Marca."
That's when I noticed the ring on his finger.
"Are you married?"
I gave him a inquisitive look.
"Til death do we part."
I stayed silent.
He picked up his flute and let out a long-slow breath.
"She left ten years ago after we put me mother in the ground. Haven't seen her since. It was warm. Like today. But the sky was... "
Brendan Keenan's brother, Paddy, is one of the most respected Pipers to come out of Ireland, maybe the world.
It's a 3am morning and I'm running on yesterday's sleep.
There is a man in the house next to me who stares at the wall. I opened the window, crossed the grass, walked through his garage and climbed into his head and all I found was a leather glove.
I saw a man in strong gallup through red canyons. He kept that pace until I woke. I opened my eyes to a poster of Michael Jordan.
I saw a man in strong gallup through red canyons. He kept that pace until I woke. I opened my eyes to a poster of Michael Jordan.
Monday, September 26, 2011
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Fall
In their deep greens the leaves refused to acknowlege it was the first day of fall. Strong was their unwillingness to give summer the recognition it deserves. How it kept them warm for so long.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Routine is the survival tactic we have deployed to maintain all of this. When a new experience threatens us we flag it, file it away and tend to avoid it. But the the better question is, why mow the lawn in the first place?
Label it, categorize it, and make sure it gets on that shelf for safe keeping.
Label it, categorize it, and make sure it gets on that shelf for safe keeping.
When I rise in the morning I grab the device for a summarization of the world as it was written yesterday.
To blame dull human interactions on machines is to undermine the brilliance of the human spirit but life before electricity must have made me tremedoulsy curios.
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